Most years I'm just a little depressed after Christmas ends. The excitement of the season is over, there's nothing to look forward to. But not this year. This year I'm looking forward to what comes after Christmas. Partly because there are so many exciting events coming up in just the next few months. In just 7 months I will have graduated from law school, moved from California to Georgia, studied and taken the Bar exam. We are going on vacation to Hawaii with BA's parents in March, Leah turns one in July, and there's a good chance BA and I will trade my old '99 Toyota for a "new" used car.
The other reason why I'm anxious to get back to our regularly scheduled programing is that Leah has been kind of exhausting recently. I am constantly trying to keep her either entertained or asleep, and failing miserably at both. She so desperately wants to sit up and can't quite do it yet. So gone are the days where she will play happily on her back or tummy for any extended period of time. Leah has also been extremely fussy in the early evening; we are speculating that it is due to teething, but it's also probably due to the fact that she doesn't take long naps during the day and by 5 p.m. she is over-tired and very grumpy. We usually put her to sleep at 7 p.m. so we are stuck in no-man's land from 5:00-6:30 p.m. where it's too early to feed her and put her to bed, but she desperately needs to take a nap. The only thing that remotely keeps her happy at that time of night is if someone is holding her and walking around. Not sitting - Mussolini won't let you sit, you must be moving around and holding her upright, otherwise she wails. It's exhausting. So I'm feeling pretty defeated. And I need a break. I am used to spending Christmas break relaxing, reading for fun, visiting family, going out with friends, etc. There has been very little of that this year. There has been no laying around reading books or watching TV. I know this is an adjustment that comes with being a first-time parent. I just didn't expect it to feel like so much work.
This too shall pass . . . Take time to smell the roses and enjoy the good times with your family. (And give little Peanut a kiss for us.)
ReplyDeleteAs Priscilla said, this to shall pass. But I don't think it ever ends with children--they are your constant concern and love. One day, though, you will be able to see it was all worthwhile. The love you have given so unselfishly and the love you have been given in return, nothing can compare. Embrace every moment and seal it in your memory. Love, J
ReplyDeleteI can say after almost a week with Miss Leah that she definitely does require you to hold her and walk around the apartment, which is very cute but can be very tiring. We'll see if she likes to "walk" around as much when she will be doing the walking herself.
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